Pluto & Selfcare I

I’m sitting at my table, holding a cup of warm saffron tea between my hands.
It’s not that I’m ill, but my head feels heavy.
As if a layer of mist has settled… Not sharp, but gently pressing, like after a night filled with too many dreams.

I stir slowly.
The saffron threads swirl through the warm water like memories that haven’t quite landed yet.

Sometimes I believe I only function well when I’m clear.
As if care only counts when it’s thoughtful, efficient, or inspiring.
But today feels different.
Today, it’s my body setting the pace.
Not my schedule, not my intention,
but my temples, my neck, the slow pulse beneath my skin.

There’s something comforting about this slow morning.
The steam touches my face before I take a sip.
The scent is earthy, slightly medicinal, softly sweet.
Next time I could add some honey.

As I sip, I notice my head doesn’t lighten,
but I’m no longer resisting it.
I let it be heavy.
As if I’ve finally allowed this too to belong.
The unclear days.
The sentences that won’t come.
The slowness that doesn’t match the clock.

And somewhere in that slowness, I recognize Pluto.
Not in the grand, collective gesture,
but in a personal undercurrent.
In the part of me that doesn’t want to speak.
In the deep delay of something not quite ready to be born.
He lives in the “not yet,” in the “still unknown,”
in the weight that needs no explanation.

Pluto in me says:
You don’t need to brighten up in order to exist.
You’re allowed to be heavy. Raw. Tired.
You don’t have to transform anything today.
Just stay present with what hasn’t revealed itself yet.

And maybe that’s what my care is about today:
Not action, but acknowledgment.
Not lightness, but allowing.
The fact that I exist, even when I have no solutions to give,
even when I’m just sitting here with a cup of saffron and a slow-thinking head.

Care is also this:
drinking slowly,
not waiting for the answer,
but staying close to the body that’s trying.

I’ll sit a while longer.
Maybe I’ll write more later.
Maybe I won’t.

For now, this is enough.
And maybe that’s already everything.

Read also Part II to get more info about Pluto & Selfcare

Pluto is in Aquarius until 2043, bringing deep shifts in how we relate to power, technology, and collective structures.

From May to October 2025, Pluto is retrograde, inviting you to release old control patterns and embrace inner transformation.

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